break ups and bad timing!

Hello everyone so I know I haven't posted a blog for a very long time and I will give you my reasons now as to why! I have just been through a really hard break up with my now ex boyfriend its been over a month now since I have become newly single im starting to get on feet now iv been drinking a lot of wine and have had a lot of tears but now its time to move on! moving on seems like the hardest thing to do but I know its for the best! I truly believe in not getting back together with your exs because it will never ever be the same as much as you think it will it wont! so I have been doing a lot of soul searching and I really feel like iv grown so much these past couple of weeks! iv been doing things going places and meeting a lot of new people!

besides getting broken up with I also lost my job! then found a new one and quit that one! I feel like im going through a mid life crises because I have no idea what I want to do where I want to go! it horrible! I don't know my purpose in life I really just want to do something worth while! Iv been doing a lot of protesting and helping out at a lot of animal shelters its really helped me a lot I recommend it to anyone who is going through a tough time! I will post a new blog later on the week about what im protesting for! I feel like im a new person in a way which is great! I will keep you guys updated with all my adventures!! I feel so much better that im blogging again I really missed it!!

Suburban Junky

The next book review I'm posting is a book called Suburban Junky by Jude Hassan. Its a biography about a young boy living in the suburbs just starting high school not having a lot of friends because he is the "new kid" but one day he becomes friends with one of the popular guys at high school.

Jude goes to his first high school party but on the way there he gets introduced to marijuana, now Jude's father is a drug consular so Jude knows exactly what it is and knows the consequences of taking the drug, but pear pressure from his friend he takes his first pull of the drug and that's where it all starts going down hill.

this book is brutally honest and really explains what drugs do to you and how bad it really gets from being on one drug and going on to the other and how bad suburban kids are and how easy it is to get drugs. Now I'm not against marijuana I know people who take it, but some people, I guess take it a bit to far.

I would defiantly recommend this book to a everyone of all ages. please let me know what you thought of it and what books you recommend me to read! have a wonderful Wednesday!

A diary a young girl

So as you know I read Eleanor and Park, and as I said in my pervious post that it was amazing it really put me in a good mood which I like from a book because reading should relax you, well that's my opinion. The next book I read which probably all of you have read in school or maybe in collage is The Diary of a young girl by Anne Frank.

I wanted to read this book because I haven't read it at school, that was the only reason. I really thought that this book was going to be a bit more, interesting I guess it really disappointed me. and I sort of rushed reading it I really did not want to know how many potatoes they had for supper, lunch and breakfast and if she said it once she said it a thousand times. Yes you eat potatoes and always complaining about not being taken seriously, she was 15 she isn't going to be taken seriously I really didn't think teenagers back then are just the same as they are now except I think more educated back then.

the booked ended how I expected it to and I really wanted it to be more involved in the war and more about her suffering and how hard it was then hearing about everything she hates about her life and her mother.

So that's my review I cant think of anything else to say about the book and nothing really amazing either it didn't put me in the most relaxing mood and I don't want that out of a book, but I read it and its out of the way.

the next book ill be reading is good so far kind of intense and honest but that's what I like on a book.
its a biography and I cant wait to tell you about it!

 

Please let me know what you thought of the book! don't be shy

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Dont stop believing |Eleanor and Park

This story has a theme song, the best theme song i could think of its (dont stop believing by Journey) that would play at the end of a movie, if this was a movie. this book was and wasnt prodictable. this book was sad, happy, funny and hopeful all in one. it made me feel every emotion possibel. this was young love at its finast, this is Eleanor and Park.

Wow guys this was an amazing book this book was exactly what i expected but more i really do feel sorry for the next book im going to read, beacause honestly i would read it all over again. Eleanor and Park hated eachother but most of all they didnt want to love eachother. this was high school and Park was kind of in the popular group and Eleanor was well Eleanor was new.

i will not go further but i will say this. its something you can completley relate to, well i definatly can. oh and the ending the ending was perfect.

I hope you all enjoyed my review cause i really liked writting it

i wont say what im reading next but what il say is that its something i didnt get

to read at school.

 

 

 

please let me know in the comment below what you thought!

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Started reading again

So sometimes I read like 4 books in the period of 2 months and I love them all to bits! but then I go through a bit of a rough patch finding a book to read cause none of them compare to the books iv previously read, or I start reading a book and it wasn't what I expected to be.

 

I have finally come out of my book reading funk and found a really awesome book I am reading at the moment I'm half way through and just got to that part of a story where you really start enjoying the characters and you start making pictures in your head imagining what they look like.

 

The book I'm reading is called Eleanor and park by Rainbow Rowell I don't know if that is the persons real name or what?? but its a great book so far such an easy read its not romantic in a way that its all lovey which bores me to death, but quirky and funny.

 

You just want to carry on reading it and I will do a review soon on it so don't go reading it yet but all I can say about it now is that its sweet and funny and its based in the 80s which I love from reading the perks of being a wall flower which was actually based in the early 90s but still a great book.

 

here is a picture of the book I am reading hope you will enjoy it as much as I do! comment below of any other books you think id enjoy! and have an amazing day!

 

 

I love the cover!!

 

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Birthday suprises

So yesterday (Monday) was my boyfriend Neil's birthday and I decided to take him on a little holiday to Port Alfred this past weekend. He was completely surprised and so happy that I had done this for him I booked a self catering suit right on the beach for two nights packed the bags got food and put everything in the car before he got home. I told him to get dressed and I put him in the car and started driving. I really thought he would of caught on where we were going but I ended up telling him on the way cause I needed help with the directions seeing as I haven't been to Port Alfred in a long time!

here are some pictures of our trip! I hope you all enjoy them! and having an amazing Tuesday!

 

 

packed the car!

 

doesn't know what's going on

 

Wave Crest Self-catering suits

 

Lovely dogs that stayed with us!

 

Exploring!

 

So Happy with the surprise

 

This beach is just across the road from where we stayed

 

 

Our room

 

the sweetest kitchen

 

early morning walk on the beach

 

 

seashell hunting

 

I just love this picture

 

Bermuda restaurant for lunch 

 

 

love strawberry Cosmo

 

Mojito!!

 

 

Port Alfred River

 

 

I got this beautiful frame at shop in Port Alfred

 

 

These are just my favourite little door knobs/handles I had to get them 

 

 

Last night in Port Alfred out for supper

 

 

Steak and garlic sauce with fried onions and fries 

 

Sad to go home

 

 

Look what I found this beach and I share a name!

 

Kelly's Beach 

 

 

I love how they make this hold cupboard look so GLAM 

So that was my Little trip this weekend everyone! I want to go back as soon as possible I would live there is I could its so peaceful and clean! WOW what a clean little town port Alfred is! I hope you all enjoyed my post I love sharing my life with you! please follow!

 

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A scary amazing adventure

So I have a huge opportunity in my company that I have made happen by working hard and showing my boss she can trust me with this big task to take a tender document to Durban harbour by myself, get a taxi get there sign, hand it in and come home!

Now maybe to some of you it seems like nothing but because I am only 20 and starting out my working career this is a big thing or me to do, yes I have been on an airplane by myself but not like this having to find my way by myself. the last time iv been to Durban I was 9 years old so this is an amazingly scary adventure!! to prove to myself and others that I can do things like this because this is the type of thing I want to do. have an opportunity to go places but with my company its cheaper that way as well.

so here are some pictures of were ill be going to drop this very important document at! honestly looking at this places doesn't make me feel like getting on a plane back to my small little town

 

this is Durban harbour.

 

so watch this space everyone

 

Bye!

Goals and life

My life is pretty boring at the moment. I have been working a lot trying to get money to do something interesting I have so much I want to do this year but I don't have the money to do it. south Africa to some peoples surprise its pretty dam expensive for example petrol to go places and accommodation.
money has come a bit of an obsession for me at the moment because I see all these beautiful things and places but I cant buy or do the things I want to do.

I am considering getting a second job or maybe looking for a better job I'm not earning what i want to earn I live with my boyfriend as well and he is still an apprentice so the pay he gets isn't great either. as I couple you want to do things together and go places. he says one day we will do things, but I want to do things now not when I'm older and not when I have kids I want to do it all now. but maybe now isn't the right time, everything happens for a reason.

I have goals and I want to finish them I want this year to be a good year. I'm feeling a bit discouraged at the moment. does anyone have any advice for me?

these are some of the things I want to accomplish during this year

• see snow
• touch an elephant
• have enough money to buy what I want
• have my blog followed buy 500 people
• make money on my blog
• have my hair grow past my chest
• find out what I want to do in my life and do it

let me know what you want to do this year leave a comment below!

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a little place i love to go

So to start this blog off my mom and dad got divorced when I was seven I am fine with it they still speak to each other everyone is happy and I have a great step mom that I love every much. I go to my dad as often as I can seeing as he lives an hour away from me. he lives in a little seaside village away from shops there is one pub there that makes the most amazing home made beer.

my step brother my boyfriend and I love to go to the beach and take pictures and go play pool at the pub and watch rugby games. one Sunday morning my brother my boyfriend and I took towels and went down to the beach close to my dad. I have never been to this beach and this is what I found I hope you enjoy!

 this is the path to the beach its quite a walk but so worth it you feel like you in the jungle there are spider webs all over the trees its beautiful and super quiet.

 

that's me!!

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 this is one of my favourite pictures I have never seen rocks like this! 

 

 

and this is what we had after its the best beer well ale in the world! hope you enjoy my blog!

have an amazing day!!



 

 

 

something i do |something to think about

sometimes I do this I don't know why I read a book and half way through I get over it. so im reading a book called the boy called it. its a true story so they say about a little boys story of his abusive mother and how she treats him like doesn't feed him for a whole week. makes him clean the bathroom stabs him and doesn't take him to the doctor, lets the cute get infected and then because he is nearly dying his mother gives him scraps of food.

I have no idea why I am reading this book its horrific and sad and there are millions of books I could choose to read but I choose this. I don't know if its a famous book or if anyone of you have read it but its interesting and makes you feel selfish that you are dwelling on your little day to day problems and all we are doing in complaining about them instead of doing anything about.

I have a roof over my head I have a loving family I have a job I had an education I have food in my stomach, but yet I am complaining and being upset and moody! sometimes you have to take a HUGE step back and look at your life you cant look at a painting close up to sea a beautiful picture you have to stand back and look at the whole thing.

so here's something to think about my internet friends



ITS MY LIFE

so this is sort of like an epiphany in a way. I was driving home yesterday I do a lot of thinking when I drive home I like to reflect on things when I'm driving. a thought popped into my head, I thought this is my life, THIS IS MY LIFE! I love the people in my life and I tend to put people before me but this is my life I have to do what is best for me at the end of the day.

if you make decisions in your life that make other people happy you will never be happy you will never do the things you want to do. As you have read in my pervious blog I was upset about something and I wanted to tell you guys because this is an honest blog about life and learning things in your 20s. everyone has their own beliefs in things what they think is right and wrong and someone close to me did something that I think is really wrong and hurt me really bad. I realised that if I want my mind and soul to be cleansed and not have hatred and anger in my soul I have to forgive this person.

now I know there are some things you cant forgive people for you have to make up your mind if you still want to be friends with that person or still married/dating that person. if that person isn't good for you then its best to let them go even if it hurts because you have to do what's best for you this is your life!

now the person that hurt me I know in my heart it isn't worth not having them in my life its not that big its just knowing that they know how I feel about what they did and that they wont do it again. I hope this helps some of you and i just want to thank the people that read my blog you guys really make my day.

when things go wrong

this post was suppose to be about the wedding I went to what I wore and how it was but I am really not in the most creative mood to type such a post. my weekend was supposed to be a good weekend full of fun and special times but it turned out to be one of those weekends and that you wish it was Monday again and I don't think anyone wishes it was Monday.

I'm not going into huge detail with why I am sad to day because I'm not big on opening up and I like to keep a bit of mystery in my life. but I found out something about someone close to me and they did something that really hurt my feelings and made the other people close to me lie about it. now this person is very close and what that person did was very hurtful. I hate letting people get to me and ruining my weekend. I feel weak and really betrayed. I haven't learnt a lesson yet and I don't know the outcome of all of this but I hope its a positive outcome. I'm sorry my blog isn't as good as it should be but I wanted to give you guys something even if its just an explanation.

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So i Stole a Camera......

In my pervious blog I was telling you the about where I work and why and how it is and I felt so sad that I could not share it with you. so I stole a camera.... my moms camera so don't get worried she knows. I was driving to work and I thought are those pirate ships??? so I decided to take a drive to the harbour and get a closer look! they were the most beautiful sale boats I had ever seen!

  

 

I felt like I was in the 20th century waiting for a pirate to steal me away and take me to gold and jewels. yes I am a dreamer, oh and he must look like Johnny Depp! I was so enchanted by these sale boats that I wanted to stay down there the whole day but they where leaving that morning the sun was glistening on the sea as the boats drifted out the harbour I felt so amazing to have witnessed this and I hope you all enjoy it! Here are more pictures I took!

 

 

 

 

camera

so this morning as I was as I was driving to work I past the harbour and there was the most beautiful sunrise over the ocean and the little boast floating on the water I felt like I was driving into a little seaside village wear I work is I drive through town with the busy taxies and traffic and lots of people rushing to work and school and as I drive over the bridge it feels like iv been transported to a totally different place.

my office is based in a quite little area with little shops on school and there are still train tracks all over the roads where trains use to transport grain and coal to the city and other towns. I live in south Africa by the way in a city called east London on the coast of south Africa its on Google earth if you would like to sea it.

the reason I work by the harbour is because I work for a contractor for Mercedes Benz south Africa and we move the cars from the finishing line of Mercedes Benz to the harbour and then the vessel ships them to places like long beach and all around the world.

I am so getting off the topic of this blog the reason I am telling you all this is because I am dying for a camera so I can take pictures of this beautiful quite place and all the little tranquil things that come with it. if you have eve watched the series haven you will know what I'm talking about. I feel as im trying my best to describe what I see every morning it would be way better to show you on picture I hope you will read my blog and be patient.

amazing pictures will be up soon. as for the book I am reading I will try my best to finish it and give you all my thoughts on it.

nearly at my smi finish line and abit of venting, sorry

June, when I think that it is nearly June I have this huge sigh of relief! for me knowing that it is the middle of year and I'm still alive makes me very happy I have no idea why, but if I know I made it to June that means I can  make it till the end of the year, its kind of like me saying "okay Kelly you have gone this far you can get through the rest of it the worst if over!" because I honestly feel the beginning of the year is the worst part of the year you have to get back into working or you have to start a new year at school. I feel stressed at those times but know I know its June, now I can carry on knowing there's only six months to go.

I guess its sort of like the book I'm reading if you haven't been reading my blog its called the time keeper and there's one man who wants time to slow down and there's a young girl who wants it to speed up I want it to slow down now cause there's not enough days in the week where you can stop everything your doing or thinking and just STOP! stop everything a take a breath sit and be still, okay some of you must think what is she on! there's always sleeping, but im not talking about sleeping im talking about if you could come home with no reasonability's and just sit and reflect without having to talk, feed, car, be with anyone but yourself! I just want to have even 10 minutes to myself just myself, not having to worry about money or food or time or if my cats and bunny are fed or when I must get ready for gym when my boyfriend is coming home, BLAH BLAH BLAH!! i just want to think of nothing sometimes, am I being selfish?

let me know what you think of this mess of a post but honestly writing this out made me feel a whole lot better

the time keeper and heaven

I have read to amazing books, the time keeper and the 5 people you meet in heaven by Mitch Albon, both amazing in their own way and its an easy read which I love. it really makes you think gives you some comfort and opens your mind to a whole new perspective on life. I got comfort from those books and I little bit of hope I cant say I'm a big Christian but I do believe in God I talk to him in my own time maybe in the car or anywhere I don't go to church I don't think that makes you a Christian, well that's what I believe.

I will defiantly post more blogs about the books I read and how they affect me. I hope you read these books and they give you some closure to. I have not finished the time keeper yet but I will post soon on what I think of it but for now I'm enjoying it! 

something i have learnt

Fighting with a friend isn't a nice thing at all I know when I was younger maybe even 2 years ago I would fight with a friend and we would fight back and forth saying ugly thing to each other. i have learnt recently that if I friend fights with you ( a good friend) sometimes its best not to fight back to hear her out first and if you come to the conclusion that you are kinder in the wrong its best to just put up that white flag and be like okay I understand were you are coming from and then tell her how you feel and if she still fights back just be nice and say I don't want to fight with you I love you and give her space to cool down cause you cant fight fire with fire, and don't think that you are letting her walk all over you, you are just being the better person.

She will come around soon cause you cant fix something when the person is angry they have there guard up and are ready for you to strike, there's no point in resolving it straight away. its kind of like fighting with a boyfriend yes its better to resolve it sooner then later but you also have to cool down a bit and have a clear mind. so what I'm trying to say is I have learnt patients in fighting as well as controlling those angry emotions.

I know its hard sometimes, we are not perfect but sometime you have to put your pride in your pocket and be the calm on even if the person says or does ugly things. I hope this little blog has helped you in some way.

starting something new

So I have done some soul searching in the last couple of days iv started writing a children's story and I'm sending it to a proof reader its a big thing for me personally to even attempt something like this because I am not a fan of criticism at all mostly criticism from myself  I AM MY WOSRT NIGHTMARE everything about my life has to be perfect! nothing must go wrong! now don't get me wrong though ill leave stuff lying around my wardrobe is a mess!! but that's my personal stuff I'm talking about the Kelly everyone sees what I look like what I wear, where I work what friends I have. All that has to be prefect, my relationships have to be prefect I don't think I'm a perfectionist like everything has to be clean but life has to be clean and its a horrible abbot to have.

so writing this story phoning a proof reader was a huge step and even getting feed back from her will be a big thing for me and ill take criticism postil so I can learn cause I don't know what I want to do in life yet I haven't studied anything nor have I wanted to so maybe this is a step in that direction or hopefully a really good direction.    

coming to a computer near you round 2!

so long story short! I don't know what happened to my other blog which is Kelly20somethingblogs.blogspot.com if you want to read it1 not very happy with myself I was really working hard on my blog! but if you want to catch up on what I am doing that's the place to go!